moving on, letting go something that I used to hold on for 3 yrs.
sour.


I wasn't feeling good at all. hurt and upset, and I bet he feels even more. I had been fooling everyone, these few months. I had been hurting my love ones these few months. Seeing them worried, yet I never do anything.
sorry.


but last night. well, a decision was made. ha! funny isn't it? I had numerous long talk with different people, and it was the first time I had such topic of conversion with my parents. People were scolding me how silly i am, asking me to grow up. So, is such decision consider grow up?
If I have a choice, I don't wish to do such thing at all. It's hurtful..


I wonder how's him? He will be fine, right? someone please assure me that. I'm very worried about him, I want to care for him, I want to support him, I want to feel his warmth in the night, and his scent is on my bed. I have friends and family to support me, but he don't.
someone, anyone just tell me that he will be fine..


I will move on, so do you. I really hope this is the best for both of us. I hope one day you will contact me, as a friend.


p.s i will remember you.