Saturday, June 30, 2007 Y 1:30 PM
ONE WEEK OF HEAVY STUDYING HAD PAST!! 5 MORE WEEKS TO GO.
staying back after school everyday until 4.30pm is seriously VERY tiring. i fall aslp everyday BUT NOT TODAY!! ^^
went to ballet straight away after e math mock test today. thanks god ballet wasn't so tiring today, if not i will be dead. however, we did one hour of point work!!my toes are hurting really very badly now. even though it's painful, i LOVE dancing on point. it makes me feel taller and more graceful. ^^
also, we did one grade higher work today! FUN FUN FUN!!~ i feel higher grades make be dance from the bottom of my heart even more. all the tiredness i had in school is all erase!!
I SIMPLY LOVE DANCING!!
gym and study with beekoon tml!! fats fats fats, OFFF MY BODY!!~
pool with bijun on MONDAY!! ^o^
STUDY OR SLEEP?!?
STUDY OR SLEEP?!?
STUDY OR SLEEP?!?
well, i think i should study. for the sick of my O levels. =.= 11th of july will be my chinese oral, and 5 more weeks to perlim!! wish me luck.
Thursday, June 28, 2007 Y 1:00 PM
photos UP on my dad's birthday dinner.
.cake cake cake.
.family photo.
.DADDY!! i love him!!.
i know something is not right. i sense, i feel something going to happen. i feel something, which i never want to happen, going to happen. i know i did something which i don't want to do. someone please tell me that i'm thinking too much. someone please give me one big slap on my face. i hate myself. i hate who i am now.
i love you unconditionally, how abt u? if not, what's the reasons? i always make u so pissed so irritated, why u still want me? if u love me conditionally, den i think uhave choose the wrong person. i hate myself hurting u. but i really dont know how to not yo hurt you. u told me before, as long as i'm happy, u are happy too. but now, it's doesn't work this way. what u really want?
i love you unconditionally, how abt u? if not, what's the reasons? i always make u so pissed so irritated, why u still want me? if u love me conditionally, den i think uhave choose the wrong person. i hate myself hurting u. but i really dont know how to not yo hurt you. u told me before, as long as i'm happy, u are happy too. but now, it's doesn't work this way. what u really want?
OFF to study!!~
Tuesday, June 26, 2007 Y 11:06 AM
.school girl. *i look werid.
school starts today!!the feeling of wearing back school uniform is... like this lorx. blahh ^^
time is running out. from now to 12 jul will be O lvl MT oral, 16 jul is MT LC, 7 more weeks to EL oral, 2 more mth to perlims,and 4 more mths to O lvl written exam!! o.0
FAST FAST FAST!!
all teachers are very worried, including me. school time is even longer now. every mon to thur, we must stay back after school for extra lesson until 5pm. stressful period starts tomorrow, or i should say today. well, i think i better go study now. tons of revision need to study.
thanks jingyu for your chocolate! it brighten my day. ^^
there's no such thing as private post in blogger. so i will appreciate that you all wont read it. thanks..
RAH!!~
she really get my nerves out! she's really make me so irriated. she makes me DON'T LIKE her.
so what you are my mum, the way you did things, the way you treat my dad. i really cannot take it. i'm a human, i will get angry. it's not fair. he's your husband, he treat you so nice. can you just treat him better? everytime give attitude to me or my dad, have you ever give attitude to him? shouldn't you be treatting your husband better then your FRIEND?!?
i can't hate you, i can't scream at you! all i can do is just vent my anger here!! i hate it i hate it!
Monday, June 25, 2007 Y 2:23 PM
I LOVE HIM!!
I LOVE HER!!
& I LOVE THEM!!
i'm bored. lishuang, i'm waiting for your photos. ^^
Y 1:18 PM
i was so PISSED PISSED PISSED just now.
pissed by who!?! MY MUM!!
went jalan kayu yesterday to buy my dad's fav cake, durian cake for his birthday. i spent 36 bucks on cake, and don't know how much on cab fare and MRT fare, my dad just ate it during that dinner, which is less den a quarter!!
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!? MY MUM GAVE HALF OF THE CAKE TO HER FRIEND!!
WTH!! PLEASE, THE CAKE IS FOR MY DAD, NOT HIM!! HALF A CAKE!! SHOULDN'T BE MY DAD EATING THAT?!? OKIE, IF MY DAD REALLY CAN'T FINISH EVERYTHING, GIVE HALF OF THE HALF THEN!! NEED TO GIVE ALL?!? NOW MY DAD CAN'T EAT IT ANYMORE!! IF YOU WANT TO GIVE HIM, GO BUY YOURSELF THEN!
fuck!
you are my mum, i can't do.....BUT I'M STILL PISSED!!
wanted to call dear but he was slping. wanted to type it out on my blog but my hse internet connection was down just now. thanks god i still have bijun. thanks for your advice girl
well, school starts tomorrow!! i'm feeling kind of excited right now.
i finish all my english homework. wahaha!
i wrote one qns compo on the qualities in my future husband. interesting interesting! i feel like my expectations is too high after i read what i have wrote. it feel as though i'm finding a prefect guy. HA! no worries, i have already found one. ^^!
past four days of being beside you every single min was so great. love you dear. you will never be forget. ^^
Wednesday, June 20, 2007 Y 11:50 AM
RAH!!~
i'm super irritated right now!! that 2 guys keep on ask me whether i done my english homework or not. almost every single hour also come and ask me "what you doing? you done english paper 1/2" 5 min ago, one of both ask me again if i done compre.
WTH!!~
please lah. how many times must i say I HAVEN DO I HAVEN DO!! plus, i always fail my english. AND YOU ALWAYS PASS! DON'T YOU THINK YOU HAVE ASKED THE WRONG PERSON!?!
LET ME TELL YOU, I'M NOT WORKING HARD AT ALL THIS HOLIDAY!! SO PLEASE STOP ASKING!!!
*relax relax*
well, yesterday was a FUN and tiring day. had 2 hours of ballet lesson with my teacher. afterwards, my friend and i cab-ed down to hougang to help my teacher's friend teach. we taught 4 different grades, P-primary; primary; grade 3; & grade 4. i prefer teaching the older ones. they are the ones who we can really push them. the P-primary and primary were so shy and refused to listen to us.
i must admit 4 hours of teaching non-stop is tiring, but it's a FUN experience. i don't mind teach again. ^^
okiee. total 6 hours of dancing really make me ache VERY BADLY now. and i walk like a penguin now. hahax.
shopping with my dearest bijun tomorrow!! ^^
Tuesday, June 19, 2007 Y 2:38 AM
was watching ballet videos from youtube since 9am. early?!? thanks for the call from isaac that breakfast was cancelled.
IT MAKE ME WANT TO DANCE DANCE DANCE!!
listening to "imagine me without you" again again and again. OH MY, my mind is thinking of steps now.
I WANT TO DANCE!! I DONT WANT TO SIT DOWN ON A CHAIR AND DO MY HOMEWORK. IT'S BORING AND NOT FUN AT ALL!!
okiee. i think i better get out and do my homework. simply couldn't concentrate at home.
i want to go overseas!!
[a random msg]
Monday, June 18, 2007 Y 4:35 PM
IT'S MONDAY!!
also the FINAL week of june holiday!!
OH MY!! time FLIES!!
this week goin to be a study week. i must complete all my homework no matter what.
BUT BUT BUT!!
tuesday will be having a mid-night movie with dear and wed will be shopping with bijun.
AND AND AND!!
later i will teach ballet classes for 4 hours!! i love it! ^.^
meeting dear in 7 hours time for breakfast.^^ he's having camp for 2days, a short camp.
Sunday, June 17, 2007 Y 12:06 PM
[[Imagine me with YOU]]
As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life You're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me
When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You
Chorus:
Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without You there to see me through
Imagine me without You
Lord, You know it's just impossible
Because of You, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without You
When You caught me I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard me calling
And You rush to set me free
When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You
Chorus 2X
I can't imagine me without You
a song for YOU, my love.
Y 11:42 AM
CHOCOLATE CHIP MUFFINS!!
WAHAHA!!
i baked chocolate chip muffins this afternoon. look nice? eh, it's doesn't taste yummy to me. still need to improve.
ONE DAY! if i can bake yummy yummy cookies, brownies, muffins, pie or even cake, i will bake alot and give you all eat!
MY NEXT TARGET :-
CHEESE CAKE!!
RAH!!~
I'M STILL NOT IN THE MOOD TO STUDY!! I'M NOT RUSHING FOR MY HOMEWORK YET!!
KILL ME MAN!! WHEN WILL I WAKE UP?!?
Saturday, June 16, 2007 Y 1:07 PM
now, i'm reading why is sky blue from wikipedia.
INTERESTING INTERESTING!!
AND AND AND
there's such thing as light pollution. okie, i know i'm not knowledgeable. but i thought there's only air, land and sea polltuion. that's all i learn from textbook.
haha, can't wait for read more but my brother is back home already.
:(
YUMMY YUMMY SNAPPLE!!
currently my favourite drink now. ^^
Friday, June 15, 2007 Y 4:25 PM
WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?!?
IT'S 1.21AM!!
GUESS WHAT!! I'M STILL DOING A MATH, ENGLISH I HAVEN TOUCH IT YET!!
I'M TIRED! I WANT MY BED! I MISS MY BED SOOO MUCH!!
WORSE, TOMORROW I NEED TO WAKE UP AT 6AM.
OH MY! HOW AM I GOING TO FINISH WHAT I PLAN TO FINISH TONIGHT?!?
=.='
Y 11:53 AM
tuesday went to airport to study. well, expected that we didn't study much over there.
okie, i'm lazy to type. let the photos do the talking.^^
photos::
the guys were so late. we meet at 3pm and they came at 4. =.=' as usual, me and beekoon took photos while waiting for them.
group photos?
haha, jieqiang look so tiny in this photo.
i know i'm the shortest.
afterwards, we head our way down to eat frog porridge.^^ oh my, it's super yummmy!! must try must try. i simply can't forget the taste. yum yum frog porridge.
my aircon is back after 4 days of repairing. finally, i can sleep at my bed. i miss my bed so much. the past 3 nights i was either sleeping at my brother's room or at dear's house.
i say it again, time flies!! it's thur already and i still have tons of work haven't finish.
the works are :
1. e math, Temasek sec sch paper 1 &2 [almost done]
2. english, two set of paper 2, 3 qns on paper 1 section A and 2 qns on paper 1 section B
3. a math, Kent Ridge sec sch paper 1 & 2 [half complete]
4. geography, MCQ qns on map reading
5. phy, nuclear physics worksheet.
wish me luck. i'm aiming to complete english paper 1 section B, e math & a math. if possible, i will try to read thru what's the new topic on phy.
anyway, i brought one big box of oreo just now. hope it will help keep me awake.
i love you is not because of the love u gave me,
but is just purely loving you.^^
Sunday, June 10, 2007 Y 5:13 AM
my apology for not updating for such a LONG time cause i simply have no idea what to update.
time flies. so fast, two weeks of holiday will soon come to an end. 2 more weeks of holiday, what should i do? continue slacking or start on my revision?
no, no more slacking. it's time for studying. i still have tons of homework not completed. i believe everyone knows that the start of term 3 will be studying LIKE HELL!! we will become a studying machine.
recently i'm surfing the net for the dance scholarship. after the long conversation with my ballet teacher yesterday, i'm considering whether should i go overseas to further my dance education. she's now on her way to NZ with a group of students and she will help us get more information about dance scholarship, dance in diploma and dance in degree!! what i know from my teacher is that in NZ school of dance, they offer students to take dance courses and also continue their studies there. not like singapore, only study study study. it's really a very good opportunity, especially at this age of 17. however, we are are facing the same old problem, money. heard that it need at least 20k and above. haiz..:(
it's the fact, with the limited amount of money we have, we can't pursue our dreams. how i wish i'm rich. :(
i think i'm getting sick really soon. ate laksa with lots of chilli for lunch and i can't taste anything. i feel like i'm just eating a tasteless noodles.
^.^!! i brought famous amos cookies yesterday. cookies simply make me happy but it's make to FAT!! lol...
Y 3:36 AM
[Jojo- How to touch a girl]
1..2..3..4..
Ohhh...
I think I could like you
Already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're takin my hand
Lookin into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight
I feel something happening
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside
Do you feel somethin happenin?
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do
Ooh I'll be givin all my love to you
Ohh
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
(Yeah, yeah)
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
inexpressible feelings.
how i wish you could just understand, it's more then just not ready.
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