full-filling day!!!

i will make this post short and sweet! ^^

it's almost 2am and i'm still awake. my lesson starts at 9am tml! guess what, i'm not studying, i'm looking at photos! oh well, i did study for an hour(plus chatting online & staring into space). hahaha.

RAWRS!!!~


i spent 40min and finally complete the accounting general ledger and trial balance. at the end, i realise i did wrong for so many parts!


there's a bug flying round & round my room! nobody can save me now because it's freaking 3am and everyone is sleeping!


miss pang haven't reply me, seems tml there's no ballet lesson. :(


it's freaking 3am and i'm very awake! i dont want to work tml!! or i should say ltr.


BF BF BF! i want bf now!


SHOPPING SHOPPING! i want go shopping with bestie!


STUDY STUDY STUDY! i need more study time!


24 HOURS A DAY IS JUST SIMPLY NOT ENOUGH FOR ME!!!


RAWRS!!!~

i skipped lec today! know why!? because bestie want me to accompany her for shopping. haha.


i had dance in school just now for 4 hours! i guess i won't ache as much as last week, just that my energy level is reaching ZERO soon. i just cant wait to attend ryan's lesson again. he's really a very good instructor. ^^


i need more ballet lesson! DESPERATELY!!! pray pray pray my ballet teacher will saw the msg and have class tml before my work.


i just want to dance everyday, and not work nor doing projects!!!! but i need to work, if not i dont have money. :(


sick and tired of my complains? then look at my act cute photo then. hahahahha



how i wish i'm married. if i am, then there will be someone cooking yummy yummy supper for me, hug me, kiss me, sit beside me and hear all my complains and many many more. i know i'm attach to a lovely bf, but he cant be staying at my hse everyday rite.


hur~ dear, i miss you!!!


ok, back to study time. NIGHT!!!

i just dont like Monday and Tuesday! i totally disagree monday blue. know why? firstly, there's CSA lab lesson, and secondly the following day is all tut means i must complete it that particular night. As for tuesday, the time table is pack. from 9am all the way to 6pm! tired~

school starts tml!!! two weeks of holiday had passed and i know i use it usefully. ^^

i hate this period of time every month! it's just giving the same old problem again and again...

and now, i just want to cry like a baby....

i'm god damn tired! i'm seriuosly aching like hell! it's really being ages since i'm so busy with dance. i'm having dance since tue until friday. modern and ballet together will result ACHING ACHING ACHING! it's alright, because it just prove to me that i'm dancing properly. ^^


but still, no matter how much i complain, I JUST LOVE DANCING!!! dance is my passion, my love and my life! :D


i had just cut my nails very very very short. it's making feeling very weird when i'm typing.


anyway, GOOD NIGHT! surprise that i'm sleeping so early? oh well, i just dont have so much energy to go practise the dance steps and stretch.


i want bf hug, i want bf hug, i want bf hug!!! ya i know i'm a needy gf. ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!

watched kungfu panda today with jq and besties just now!! i wanted to watch this movie very very long ago already, just that bf just keep refusing to watch with me. :( anyway, it's not very very funny but some parts of the movie are just so cute! nevertheless, with the 2 jokers just make me laugh the whole evening. hahahahhaha


tml i will be fully occupy by dancing!!! 9-11am, sch dance, 3-5pm sch dance, 5-7pm ballet. i like!!!


hohohoho! i heard ppl say that i slim down 3 times today! :D


anyway, GOOD NIGHT!

i sell my very first tee through my blogshop!!! like finally, we open this blog months ago and i just post the tee yesterday! and guess what, i never really want to sell that tee because i just wear it a few times. anyway, $10 cash will be into my pocket tml! i'm just too excited, so accept it alright. ^^

out with bestie to kbox today!!!

the service at kbox cineleisure SUX!

anyway, photos~








anyway, it was shopping afterwards!!! finally brought my brother's birthday present. he seems to love it so much. :D and and i brought for myself a pair of shades, tiny bag and a TV watch. wahaha, total spending of the day is $100!


holiday is just left a week!!! now i left half of CSA excel individual project and microecons group project not completed.


now, i'm going to work very very hard for the coming ballet exam at sep. so so, i'm going to push away pula ubin trip on both sat and tue. sorry frens. i'm aiming for a distinction. i know it's impossible for such a bad dancer like me. but but i'm going to work hard. wish me luck ppl! ^^

a beautiful love story to share.....


On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was thenplump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid,I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me frombehind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Herwords suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wifesaid, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.

I moved Dew's hand aside and said, You go to select some furniture,O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she wasunhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At themoment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matterhow mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly,she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew’sbody. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, whatwill you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away fromher. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I wasserious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we livetogether. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got somethingto tell you, I said.She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her knowwhat I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-calledanswer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardlygive her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which statedthat she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. Sheglanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one months time before divorce, and inthe month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and shedidn t want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.I told Dew(BITCH) about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly andthought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less mademe feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on mychest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some finewrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.I didn t tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All mydresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not becauseI was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said.To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our lifewas lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not becausewe didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since Icarried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out everymorning until we are old.




true loves never die.... ^^

i stared at this website for minutes, thinking how to expressed my thoughts out, thinking which one i should or should not write. and still, i didn't get a paragragh of words...

i'm feeling damn fug up, and pls stp asking me why because i have no idea. or maybe i do have just that i simply refused to admit it. yes, i'm emo-ing. and now, i just wan to hug someone and cry like a baby.

i know i'm thinking too much, but still i cant stop myself. i'm not an ideal friend, i'm not an ideal gf, and i'm not an ideal daughter neither. i'm sorry....

time passed and every thing is changing. where are u(all)....?

i had a full filling weekend!!!