A quick update before heading to bed...


Friday.
As usual headed to school in the morning and started working at 3pm. Indeed, another tiring yet meaningful day. I had hours of talk with my manager, mark. Well, we were talking about life and my future. I totally agree/understand to what he said, and I learned alot. But, I still can't 100% sure what I want to do in the future. I need sometime to think..


Saturday.
Went for ballet in the evening. I had another talk with Miss Pang. Now, i decided to sign up the RAD teacher course. Like what Mark and Pualine told me, try everything when I'm still young. Money can earn back, time can't.


but... I don't know, I'm very confused..


In short. Although I know accounting is not my cup of tea, I'm still studying as I don't have the confidence that I will be a good dance instructor.


How I wish I will never grow up.. How I wish I could just live in my own world, with no worries at all..




Still, thanks Mark, Miss pang and Pualine. It does give a big knock on my head. I truly appreciate it.

I have a beautiful story to share...^^






tata~ time to study. ^^

Monday blues...like hell.


I hate monday, totally!


2 more weeks to mid sem test, 3 more weeks to holiday! I'm looking forward to the holiday, not the mid sem test.


but still, i can't find any motivation to study now...




bf, i miss you..

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Try it..


www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg


You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.


Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.


You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.


Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.


You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

Cam-whore before heading to school. ^^

hur hur hur~


my temperature suddenly rise up to 38 degree.


my nose is totally block..


my throat is painful..


my voice has turned very 'man'


i'm coughing, coughing and coughing..


and i'm freezing..




i hate it, especially bf is not around now. guess he's asleep, his phone is not on. :( my parents are not home yet and i can't find any panadol to make me feel better..


:(

It's reaching 3am but i'm very awake..

The morning cold and raining,
dark before the dawn could come
How long in twilight waiting
longing for the rising sun
ohoh ohoh Oh ooh

You came like crashing thunder
breaking through these walls of stone
You came with wide eyed wonder
into all this great unknown
ohoh ohoh Ohoooh Oohh

Hush now don't you be afraid
I promise you I'll always stay
I'll never be that far away
I'm right here with you

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are

You came from heaven shining
Breath of God still flows from fresh on you
The beating heart inside me
Crumbled at this one so new once i knew
ohoh ohoh Oooh ooohhh

No matter where or how far you wander
For a thousand years or longer
I will always be there for you
Right here with you

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...

I hope your tears are few and fast
I hope your dreams come true at last
I hope you find love that goes on and on and on and on and on
I hope you wish on every star
I hope you never fall too far
I hope this world can see how wonderful you are

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing...

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are
ooooooo

School was fine. It was raining this morning, so i decided to sleep for a 2 more hours. =D well, i doubt that i will pay attention in the MBs lec.

Miss me people?!?



i know i haven't been updating much recently. My apologies.. I'm so busy with studies and work now, so busy until i could hardly find anytime to meet up with bestie and bf. :(


but but!! sat i was managed to go out with bestie!! She still never fails to be my laughing pills. =D


yesterday, it was dating with bf! Though it's just a simple movie date, i had a wonderful time. well, it's been ages since we last went out for a movie. ^^ Nevertheless, bf stayed over at my hse. it's just so sweet to have some whom u love to hug u all night.


Today at work was so boring.. There's very little customers today. So i started cleaning up the stall. and guess what? i got a deep cut on my finger.



it was bleeding quite badly.. :(


alright, i will update soon when i have more photos yea! ^.^

strawberry chocolate is LOVED LOVED LOVED!!

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do


i'm so in love with this song. and now crazy dance steps are running in my head..

Life is fine for me so far. ^.^ there isn't any exciting thing happen, nor is it the best moments in my life. but still, it's peaceful.


guess, i really think a lot recently. note, not thinking those so call 'emo' things, but thinking about life. thinking, how wonderful my life is. thinking, the life of people around me.. it's really sad to read newspaper recently. and somehow, it make me realise how fortunate i am. although it's not prefect, but still i'm happy, really happy. :)


and now, my life is fully pack with school, dance, work, family, friends and not forgetting BF! but school and work occupy most of my time. i really miss my bf. not to forget bestie! it's been quite sometime since i last saw them, especially bestie..


bf's 21 birthday is coming soon! now, i'm cracking my brian to have some wonderful ideas. i wanted to organise a party, but he dont want. :( so, i have a rather crazy idea now. =D


oh well oh well, i should end this wordy post here.


^^

terrible terrible terrible....


my gastric is so painful now.. :( i cant even do anything. none of the sitting/standing/sleeping position is comfortable for me!


worst, i couldn't find any medicine for my gastric!!


and now, i only left with chinese traditional medicine which is extremely BITTER!!


save me~


hur~~~~


:(

2 nice videos to share. ^^