in tears.....


i'm tired, i'm exhausted. i know everyone is experiencing this too, i know i'm not the only one. but i just want to whine, i just want to break down and i just want to give up. i was ok just now in school, but now....


i calculated my L1R4 just now, it's far away from my expectation. i can't get into the course i want. i know, i know i'm not the worst, but my expectation is high. this prelim result is not what i targetted.


daddy was talking to me just now. i know they are worried about me and i know they know i'm studying hard. he said "i'm proud of you, you had improve so much". but i want you to feel even more proud. i'm not a express student, i can't make you feel proud. i want to show to you and everyone else, a NA student who is able to go JC, choose to go poly.


i also can feel dear's care and friends' support.


but sometimes i just can't control my emotion. i must admit i'm a very emotional person.








*dry my tears and back to my studies*


One and a half month all this will be over.
i'm really looking forward to it.






bijun, i'm sorry about today.