there's a lot of things circling around and around my head. which one should i update first? i have no idea.


once again, i cried on friday night. the main reason, i dont know. or maybe i know, just that i refused to accept that fact.




i should be studying now. i should be locking myself in my room doing some revision. but i end up here. staring at the computer screen, thinking which should i type.




i hate who am i now. bcos of who i am now, i can't concentrate on my studies and i'm letting dear very worried about me so much.




i hate i hate, i hate my uselessness. i hate myself of being not clever. i hate myself of not having a IQ of 140. i hate myself of not being as smart as my bf. i hate myself of unable to speak good english. i hate myself of unable to concentrate on my studies. i hate myself of unable to become a good dancer. i hate myself of making my dear pissed off. i hate myself as i always get so depressed easily. i hate myself as i'm listening to really sad songs now. i hate myself of not studying now. i hate myself of wanting to eat eat eat. i hate myself when i'm growing fatter now. i hate myself of doing something 4 hours ltr. i will surely hate myself after doing that thing 4 hours ltr.