[[depressed]]

don't know why, i feel so depressed since last night. the whole night i could hardly sleep....

went tution alone just now. as usual, in the bus started to hu si lua xiang. though of alot of things. looking at those people outside the street, thinking, who is having a happy live and who is suffering? thinking...

well, shall not elaborate any further.

actually, i should be going out today. actually, i should be studying now since i didn't go out. however, i feel so restless. i don't want to do anything. i just wish to lock myself in my room, looking at the clear blue sky, thinking of all the memories. no matter it's good or bad, years ago or weeks ago. i just want to lie on my bed, hug the huge tortoise which isaac gave me, listen to some slow music and stare into space.

however, i'm in a noisy environment now. gandma was watching vcd and switch on the volume so loudly until i could hear it so clearly, little kids are playing at the playground oppsite the block i live, grandparents are arguing. HUR~ i want to have some peace. can i just have have one hour of quietness.

....please...