[[feelin depressed]]

seriously, i want to sae sorri to all ma frens..sorri, i'm not strong enough, sorri for sayin i'm all alone..i neo, i'm not alone, i neo i still haf all ma frens n family..but, nth can simply stop me from havin this feelin..no one..in ma previous entry, i wrote from 5 of oct a new chap will begin..i neo u will wonder wat had happened on 5 of oct..actually, it's nth..on tat dae, i went to a place, a place which i wish to go for a very long time..tat place, i see ma very first sunset..at tat place, i told myself, i mus be strong, i mus forget all the gd and bad memories he gave me, most imp i mus forget him..but now i realise, i cant..my tears are gettin more n more..i'm gettin more and more emo this few days..i force myself to slp more..i thou once i slp my pande eyes will gone, i thou once i slp i wont tink of him so much..but i'm wrong..once i woke up from ma dreams, i started to cry..maybe i'm realli retarted..pls forgive me..ytd, thou of goin to pasir ris park alone, go there n breath some fresh air, but all thx to the haze i cant..so i decided to buy a box of strawberries from the illegal stalls near tm..however, the uncle refused to let me buy one box but 2..so nvm, i brought 2..once i reached hm, i found out tat one box of strawberries are spoilt..

.see, these are the gd strawberries.

hai..i dun understand, why mus they do this..my mum started to sae i'm stupid, why cant i jus walk away..refused to hear those words, i walked to my rm, slowly eatin ma strawberries..and i looked up to see the moon, n all thx to the haze again, the moon becomes reddish in colour..

.see.

todae went shoppin wif my mum and i started to hint her..i told her tat the relationship between me and daniel is gettin worse, oso i told her tat we might end anytime..my mum reaction was "great!!.. forget him ba, there are still better guys waitin for u de.." honestly, i neo she will sure sae this, my parents simply dun like daniel at all..all bcos i refuse to end the relationship so they haf no choice but to accept it..jus now, my dad asked me "where the hell is daniel arhx?..why i nv saw him le..sometimes i realli wonder is he ur bf and my son-in-law.." yuppix, he was rite, he is not my bf, neither nor he is my dad's son-in-law..our relationship had end, it will realli end..no more hope, there's simply no more..