went out with beekoon and bijun yesterday before work. firstly, we went to bugis and both bijun and i brought a bag. saw a few clothes but doesn't suit me. wanted to buy the $5 big watch but nth suit my taste. afterwards, it's pool at orchard. saw a really nice shorts but it's expensive! it cost $35.90. :(:(:(


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so ya, i said out something that's deep inside my heart for a long time. it's a relief, really. however, i'm still worried that something bad will happen someday....

guess what?!? my brother even more red packets than me! NOT FAIR!!!

the routine before 4.32 is nice. it reminds me the item i did during the nov 2006 concert.

even though everything seems to be fine, the hurt is still deep inside our heart.
18 years of my life, i had never never ever been scolded so badly before. i'm not blaming anyone except myself.now den i realise, i'm not a good gf at all. i always thought i'm a caring and nice gf. however, i'm wrong. i always give u lots of bullshit, so stupid, so blur, so not knowledgeable, so emo, so selfish. what's the point of not throwing temper if i always make u so irritated. useless, that's what i feel about myself. i just dont suit to be ur gf at all. hopeless, that's what i feel about myself too. all i'm good at is just been cute, make you laugh sometimes. i always request everything, without thinking what u will feel. al i thought is just make myself happier and feel that i'm not alone. i'm wrong, yet i always refused to admit it. i'm sorry.....even though u forgive me, i will never forgive myself of hurting so badly...
the feeling of hurting someone you really love is the worst.

depressed, useless, hopeless. thats what i'm feeling now.

a new blogskin! i will do the changes some other days.


i know i sound bad, but i really want my own room! i want to do many many stuffs in the night in my room without disturbing my grandmother. and now she's keep complaining she cant sleep cos the light is on! i know i sound unresonable, but i had just switch on the lights half an hour ago!


i got so many things i want to do in the night! i want listen to music, using the laptop and chatting on the phone! i just feel like i have no privacy at all! my brother has everything! his own room, a tv in his room and he always take the house phone! how about me?!? sharing room with my grandma, no tv, no phone except hp!


yes, i'm pissed! okie, sometimes i be a good girl, i go to the living room to use the laptop or chat on the phone. but end up i will disturb more ppl! my grandfather who is sleep jus right beside the living room without closing the door, my parents and my brother!


tell me! give me a solutions! seems like i do anything is also wrong!

i miss the laughter, the stress, the irritating feeling due to noisy classmate and hot weather, the 'try to be awake' feeling and many many more!!~ can i go back and study?!? weraing pasir ris sec uniform! ^^

seriously, i'm admiring those going jc! i want to go jc!! wearing school uniform, doing homeworks, paying attention in class, studying and stress!!

poly starting really soon. i'm looking forward! a new studying environment is waiting for me to go! BUT BUT!! i still haven't recieve my enrolment package!!! :((((