i hate this kind of situation happening.

brother and i quarreled, mum will be trying to say that brother is correct, and dad standing there, giving a irritated and helpless face...

bf get pissed off, with daddy standing somewhere that is able to hear every single word.




i typed a lot of things yet delete it. apparently, i'm wordless now......


p.s i'm not emo-ing. emo is being sad for no reason. there are reasons why i'm upset and somehow angry.

i'm not getting emo, i'm just getting a bit emotional. once i reached home from work, i make my brother pissed off again. nevertheless, he will start saying me useless bla bla bla... am i really? secondly, i made isaac irritated too.


somehow, sometimes. i wonder...


i guess i shouldn't elaborate any further. cause, there's simply no purpose for me to do so....




Stay With Me
Don't Let Me Go
Cause I Can't Be Without You
Hold Me Close
Because I've Built My World Around You
And I Don't Wanna Know What's It Like Without You

at first, i thought i did score well. i did manage to get my result slip from ms cheng. i did pass my english. however, after all the reflection and comparing of result, i broke down. i cried cause afterall i didn't do as good as what i expected.


i aimed for a 9 for L1R4 yet i got 13.
i aimed for a B4 for english yet i got C6.
i aimed for a A1 for e math yet i got A2 again!
i aimed for a A2 for combine humanities yet i got B3.
and i regretted of not retaking chinese because i miss a chance of getting one more A


i worked very hard, really hard. i slept so little hours at that point of time, yet i got 13. what i had targetted, i didn't score it. however, those who didn't work as hard as me did better. i'm sorry it might be hurtful to someone. but i was hurt in some other ways too. i was really happy in before, yet now i'm sad and disappointed. i regretted logging in MSN. those comparing of result pulled me to from a very high and happy mood down to a low and disappointed emotion.


so in conclusion, i'm disappointed in my result.....

p.s my apology. i just have no one to complain to. dear is sleeping now. i tired to keep as few hurtful words as possible

but i still want to thanks bijun who willing me listen to me complaining about my result.

cramps...the cramps for this mth is so bad. it's painful, it's really painful.......


how i wish there's a warm hand rubbing it, giving me some warmth.....




worse.. i will be working tml at the freaking hot place!






someone tell me. tell me what i should do. i'm lost, confused and scared. cry, doesn't help anything. yet i'm still crying.......


where are u?

Close friends. The ones we've spent the most amount of time together since secondary school days
Close friends were the ones we spent all our birthdays with.
Close friends have drifted apart.
Close friends do not make attempts to initiate meet-ups anymore.
Close friends find meet-ups a bother.
Close friends find one another a bother and eyesore.
Close friends take you for granted.
Close friends are too busy making another group of 'good friends' to be bothered with you.
Close friends......
are not close friends anymore.


i quoted this from somebody's blog. i totally agree. it's really hard to find a real and longlasting close friend. one close friend is more then enough. just one true friend, a friend that will always understand and comfortable with.


i miss...the days of crazying around after school. the days of staying in the classroom and discuss where are we going, the days at tm staircase, the days of planning birthday surprises, the days at our first chalets, the days at obs, the days........


somehow, i'm feeling really scared now. O level result is coming out really soon. means, we are entering a new environment soon. on top of that, we are growing up. planning of birthday surprises and presents seems so unfamiliar. how i wish the time could stop at 2005. the days in 2005 is the best. i really dont mind been a childish student, at least i know i'm having lots of fun, lost of joy with my friends.


i was thinking.... am i a good friend? what kind of person am i? am i weak or strong? am i a irritating person? what do people think about my character?


i'm a spoilt girl, that's what i want to be. i'm a selfish person. i'm a crybaby, who always cry even over a small little problem(i bet my bf will know this the most). i mind a lot of people's comment on me. in other words, even though i though that i did something correctly, once one person, just one person say i'm wrong, i will believe him/she. sometimes, or i should say often, i will get confused or broke down. i'm a person who mind a lot on promise. sometimes i seriously dont understand. if you cant be sure that whether you cant make it, just say "i will consider first". YES is a very strong and heavy word. or i shoul d say it this way.. YES is a happy word but NO is a sad word. for example, accepting something is a good thing compared to rejecting something. oh well, dont seems to make any sense. however, i know what i'm typing..


to be honest....
i'm emo-ing now,
i'm sad now,
i'm angry now and
i was crying just now.


this is me. and this is what i'm always doing when something unhappy happened. i was supposed to be angry, yet i'm emo, sad and crying. this is my reaction when i get angry. apparently, i will always do this on any kind of emotions except happy.


accept it or not, it's up to you.....


and now, i cant sleep..........

oh well, i want to update my blog but i'm simply too tired. so i will make it short.^.^

i simply love talking to my boyfriend!!!!!!!! :D

was suppose to go for an interview at east point. the reason is they found someone already. =.=


btw. anyone inerested to work at cs, aires? i'm quiting as it clash with my ballet lesson, not other reason. timing is 6 to 10 everyday. there will be one off day every week. most likely is on fri.




many, many things are running thru my head. i'm scared, really scared. i give up, i broke down. it's doesn't cure.

oh well, 2007 is coming to an end soon! sad to say, i dont have any countdown event this year. but but! bf is the one who will always be there for me! ^.^


i miss school! i miss the feeling of wearing school uniform and pay attention in class. i'm so envy those friends who are going to the 6 weeks jc next year. :(




even though i do have some problems, 2007 had been great for me! thanks to those ppl who are always beside me when i'm down. ^.^


2008. i still haven't plan my new year resolution.


i have so much things i want to update! but but, brother is back from work. i will try to update tonight using dear's laptop!




a new year, a new begining.


GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!!